Excruciating Pain: My Fight Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp pain erupted behind my one eye. Then came rapid stabs, like lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort subsided and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition typically begin with severe discomfort around a single eye that lasts up to three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, excruciating pain focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic bouts; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to many triggers, made things worse. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Still, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the subject. They linked the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical healing texts propose unusual remedies for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by global medical societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains slow. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple surgeries before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a calm advisor guided them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack eased.

Official guidance on management recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which apparently soothes the attacks of some people.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive treatment alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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Frederick Bryant
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